Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Death

Something so serious that can only be summed up into one word. My cousin Jamillah is going through a rough time right now, she's just lost her baby at 31 weeks gestation. When I got the phone call, all I could do was frantically try to get in touch wit one of our family members, as I was not in Philadelphia. This in a way has been a bit of a reminder for me in so many ways, and one of those reminders are "don't sweat the small stuff". My poor cousin had a rough pregnancy; not enough slowing down, problems in her relationship, and issues that stemmed from chilhood. No one knows exactly what went wrong, but it's really unnerving how much we forget that we really have no control over our very own existance. I wish I had the words to really comfort and express my grieving, but I'm lost. Writers block I guess. On top of every other situation that's found it's way into my life this past month, this takes the cake. I need a moment for things to settle down, insha Allah. Inna Lillahi Wa Inna Ilaihi Raji'oon