Working Through Hard Times

Ok,ok,ok....I have been a horrible blogger. Now, in my defense, I would like to not only say that I have been a little down, But I have also been busy. We're talking good busy here too. I have suddenly become a crafter! I heard a rumor long ago, that once you began to sew, you'll become a crafter. I said,"Oh no, not me! You're crazy, those are for women with a "white picket fence" life. No way would I have the time....well the foot in my mouth taste horrible. And now, I am going to shower you with a barrage of pics to show you just how busy I have been:

Thank you and have a nice day!! Oh! P.S. If anyones interested in anything, just leave a comment! I'm pretty well mannered.

Death

Something so serious that can only be summed up into one word. My cousin Jamillah is going through a rough time right now, she's just lost her baby at 31 weeks gestation. When I got the phone call, all I could do was frantically try to get in touch wit one of our family members, as I was not in Philadelphia. This in a way has been a bit of a reminder for me in so many ways, and one of those reminders are "don't sweat the small stuff". My poor cousin had a rough pregnancy; not enough slowing down, problems in her relationship, and issues that stemmed from chilhood. No one knows exactly what went wrong, but it's really unnerving how much we forget that we really have no control over our very own existance. I wish I had the words to really comfort and express my grieving, but I'm lost. Writers block I guess. On top of every other situation that's found it's way into my life this past month, this takes the cake. I need a moment for things to settle down, insha Allah. Inna Lillahi Wa Inna Ilaihi Raji'oon

Don't Leave Me Folks!

Very busy day; so busy, in fact I have nothing to write on account of being tired. Insha Allah, I'll write some important things down, and post it tomorrow. Night night.

Who Am I?

I woke up this morning feeling completely lost. My day started to screams in the hallway, of daily bickering. "Stop Fatboy! Momma!Momma!" (Other kid) "Shut up!". In my moment of trying to be awake, and take advantage of some unbothered time, I've realized: you just can't fake sleeping. The boys could have cared less if I were awake, in a coma, or road kill in the a.m.. It's either I better get up, or send out an S.O.S. for someone else to take the wheel. I broke out into a rage about the house not being what it use to be, and how I've completely lost it. Called up my Doc. and made an appointment to be seen on Tuesday. I rambled on partially incoherently about things I don't even remember right now, and while this is going on the boys are scattering like mad. Every thought completely annoyed me; like the fact that my cell phone has been missing around the house for a week now. It died while missing so there is no use calling it. The kids didn't like dinner tonight, and I didn't care; and telling them how fortunate they are didn't work, and I still didn't care. I'm on to their little plan: protest dinner and then I'll have child services to worry about. Well no sir you won't! I'll bribe,beg, and even disguise for you to eat those veggies! One little 7 year old ingrate protested, and when I told him he had no choice he said, "But mom, I'm completely broke!". Ya Allah! It is a cesspool of corruption in this house! Is there anyone in here on the straight and narrow, who doesn't bribe? I admit, I promise them things over a clean room, or finished school work, but I consider these rewards. Why in the world is my 7 year old trying to bribe me with cash for veggies? It's like a nightmare of some scene where he's slipping a crisp 1 dollar greenback under the table for some goods. Argh! What have we become! I'm so confused right now, I don't know whether to give rewards or make them do things on account of just because I said so. Kidnappers:10 Mom:5

Worth The Money

I'm on kindle! Just click those beautifully highlighted words. I must say, I think this blog is atleast worth $.99. Where else are you going to find such organised insanity? Come on people! Laugh with me, cry with me, pray with me, go crazy with me, but for the most part, raise some kids with me. LOL

One Fish, Two Fish, Dead Fish, Dead Turtle

Pardon if I am in the middle of a rant, but I bought my sons three fish today. They are a fish, a fish, and a fish (For lack of remembering their proper names), and the whole drive home I worried if our turtle Habil would like them. I didn't know that I should have been more concerned with tiny humans, who have an interesting way of showing they care. I would ponder on thoughts such as, "What was he thinking?", but that's exactly what he wants me to do. The diabolical mind games of these kids never cease. After coming and introducing pets to one another, "Turtle, fish; fish, turtle", I got a kick out of watching so much activity going on, that I stood there for a while smiling. Habil finally has friends to play with! Well it turns out that I am NOT the only one the kids are trying to kill in this house. I'd finished up some projects, shipped off an order, and closed a deal, when suddenly I found a mess in the kitchen. I yelled for my oldest to clean it up that instant, then told him to go to his room. While giving him a lecture of a life time, my eyes shifted suddenly to a tank that looked as though it were filled with pink water. To my horror, someone had dumped the whole bottle of fish food in! In a rage I threatend the kids with no toys, no t.v., no dessert, no reward stickers, no shoes, no shirt, no service. Yeah, I was that angry. Saying "no" just felt that good at the time. I still have a few "No's" up my sleeve, it just kind of comes out when they ask for things. LOL, what a rant. ‘Qadr Allahu wa Masha Fa’al’ (Allah has decreed it and what He willed has happened) Oh the emotional woman I am.

Worshipping Through Decor

The urge to redecorate has hit me, so I am on the hunt for more beneficial home decor. For a long time I have loved the whole natural look; plants, fruit, veggies, a nice coffee motif etc. Just natural things that represent me, with colors that are calming. Although these things represent how I like to relax, it does not represent how I worship.Insha Allah, this is about to change, I've been on the internet ordering and searching, and I feel moved already before anything gets here insha Allah. Out of everything, there is a piece of wall art that has the 99 attributes of Allah (SWT) on it. I think I love it so much, (besides the fact that the 99 attributes of my lord are on it) because there is not a lot going on in the art. It's sophisticatedly fashioned with the attributes hand written on the leather like material. I think it's just beautiful.Of course on my quest to redecorate, insha Allah, I will post more gems that I find along the net, and of course I am always open to ideas.